It's 6:00 am and I'm still awake

I can't sleep. I can't sleep. I can't sleep. And yet, I am oh so tireddd. What is going on with me? I haven't slept in days. I'm having a hard time getting my thoughts on to paper. I'm having a hard time even reading my handwriting. No stories are coming to my brain. All I can do is listen. And even that's hard, because I'm so jumpy all the time. I can't sit still. I can't be calm. I'm just an impatient little bia. Everyone says I seem out of it. They all say I seem like I'm somewhere else. I am somewhere else, I'm day dreaming about feeling normal again. I feel so cold. And ultimately scared for the well being of my slipping sanity.