So, I haven't posted anything lately. And that's not because I haven't had anything to write about. It's actually because I have EVERYTHING to write about. A million things have happened. I just haven't made sense of it enough to put it to paper. I will soon though. I just can't right now. But I will give you little blurbs of updates.

*I lost all of my lifelong best friends recently. We've been on the rocks for awhile apparently. I didn't know. And now they don't want anything to do with me. I was really upset for a little bit, but I've learned a lot from this experience. And I've actually made some new amazing close friends that I will talk about more later.

*My grandfather, the one I told you about, well dramatic stuff has happened.

* no more drugs. no more breakdowns

*I met a nice boy.

*I am happy.