Thursday, December 18, 2008
Yesterday Kaitlyn and I went to this really snazzy library in Newport News. It was near the Hilton. They had the greatest most alluring childrens' section. The books were so intriguing. The little stories were illustrated with simple motifs like pretty birds and sand castles with little red shoes that precious little feet would eventually fit into. The thematic issues were refreshing. Don't steal. Don't be reckless with the feelings of others. Be good. Be kind. Respect your Mother. Keep trying.
I'm learning how to pray. I need to pray more. I need faith. I must have faith.
I'm not saying that because I want to go to heaven. I'm sayting it, because I need to know there is something more out there- something far greater than what we are. But how do you find faith? Where are all the miracles?
She is mentally ill. rather was mentally ill. I am "ill." So I'm going to pray (?) to her. It seems appropriate given the circumstances and my reasoning.