Thursday, August 13, 2009

I can't sleep and I don't know why. I've done everything I can to exhaust my body, but it's all to no avail. I went running right before taking my sleeping pill and not even that worked. Now, it's 4am. My eyes burn and my muscles are tired, but my mind is racing on wildly. I hate being in this condition where your mind and body won't agree. Sometimes I feel like my brain is this wild horse that refuses to be tamed... like flika.

Anyway, I go back to school soon and that is absolutely exciting. I am so ready to start a fresh new semester full of english classes that I'll actually enjoy as opposed to classes like Algebra that I dreaded.

This semester, I'm forcing myself to get out more. Instead of just slouching around my dorm, I'm going to make more friends and go to more school events like football games.

I'm tired of hating the way my life is. It's time for me to take more control. All I ever do is day dream about how things can be better. Well, now it's my goal to match my dreams to reality.

Wish me luck.


  1. Join clubs! You'll love college more then : ) Good luck.

  2. I'm sorry you aren't sleeping well. I have been unable to sleep through the night this week as well. I think it's because I have been anxious about all my appointments and things to get done. Hopefully that will settle.

    I agree I want to push myself more this year.