Friday, October 9, 2009

Thoughts from a loner on a friday night. Cheers!

"I got my knuckles bruised by a lady in black, and  she told me son fear is the heart of love, so, I never went back."- dcfc

So, once upon a time I met this really cool lady who gave me all this great advice. And I followed it blindly, because she seemed right... until, however, it got me no where. And I realized she wasn't always right. And that was when I came of age. Since then, I've taken every bit of advice anyones given me with a grain of salt. I think it's important to remember that the advice a person gives is what worked for that person. It might not work for you, simply because people are different. And sometimes, advice is useless. Sometimes we need to break free of expectations and what is considered right and do what FEELS right and learn our own lessons. Now of course, it's not always like that. Sometimes, you do need to shut up and do what someone tells you. Your gut will tell you when to do which.

In these short nineteen years of my life I've learned to listen to my gut. Listen to music. Listen to poetry and books. And feel things for myself. This is a very important lesson.

 If you constantly live your life constrained by the expectations of someone who is not you, you will most definitely miss out. And that is awful. Does that make sense? idk.. i am just rambling, because it's late at night and I'm tired and feeling crowded by my thoughts.

But on a lighter note, I am at home. my real home. with my wonderful parents, eating homecooked chili in my very comfortable bed, playing with my lovely bag of bones old dog who smells like mother nature's poop. Today is a good day. And tomorrow will be better, because I'll see some of my best friends like kait and kelsey.

How sweet it is to be alive when a weight is lifted.

P.S. If you get a chance listen to Amy Millan's cover of Deatch Cab's "I'll follow you"


  1. I completely understand what you said, but I don't think I've learned that lesson yet. I still have to come of age, and hopefully it's soon.

    I'm glad your home, being home is such a good feeling.

  2. I hope you are feeling better<33 enjoy your fall break love!