Right now, I feel weird. I don't know how to express exactly what I'm feeling. I just know that I don't want to go to class. I don't want to take quizzes. I don't want to talk to people. I just want to lay in bed and listen to sad music. I don't want to be held accountable for anything right now. I just feel so weak emotionally. I know I sound lazy and you're probably thinking I'm pathetic, but I'm not. What I'm feeling right now is so heavy. It's more than anyone can bear. If you felt the way I do, you'd understand.
Sometimes when I walk around outside like this and see people I know, I wonder if they can tell just how upset and confused I am. Can they see past the small talk and the fake smiling. Can they see past my composure. I know my mom can. She came to visit and it was like she knew immediately. moms are like that. she noticed the bags under my eyes.
I hope I feel better soon, because Life doesn't wait.
"The world is not respectable, it is mortal, tormented, confused, deluded forever, BUT, it is shot through with beauty and line, with it's glints of courage and laughter, and in these,the spirit blooms...."