Tuesday, November 10, 2009
Lately, I've been feeling kind of out of it. I've been feeling very lazy and unenthused about a lot of things, but mostly school. My grades have dropped dramatically from all As to all Cs. I don't know what's going on. It's just that every time I open a novel I'm supposed to read or start my Latin hw, I can't get into it. I try so hard, but my mind is in a completely different place that refuses to let go. And I can't get any work done.
I don't know where my mind is right now. Everyone says I seem like I'm some where else. Where am I? I just keep dreaming about better and funner places where things make sense and everything goes my way. I wish I could connect the two worlds. I think I'm going to try, I just have no idea how to do that. All I know for certain is that I just want to lay in bed all day and feel better. It's getting so cold outside.
I can't wait until the end of the semester when I move out of the dorms and into my own house. I think things will get better for me then. I'll have less distractions, etc. I'll be able to focus on the important things in life. I can't wait to decorate everything. I already know how I'm going to set things up. I'm buying a shit ton of decor from modcloth.com. They have the best apartment stuff. You should check it out.